probably suicidal

It is the start of the rainy season and that empty feeling/feeling alone is going back again. I used to love rain in my younger years as my creative side is very active, I’ll be sketching people and places then after that try to do painting or ink my sketches. Nowadays, it felt sad and I not even complaining because it still fits my mood, even though I sound/look very cliche.

I also noticed that going to go back to the office seems like a burden to me for a couple of days. I don’t know what I’m doing, usually, I end up hating myself at the end of my shift and that feeling goes even worse, especially when I return home. Even though I’m already used to seeing an “empty” house every night, it still bites me from time to time. I already consider getting a pet but I’m currently stuck on these options — adopting a cat or waiting for my brother to give me a puppy. There are plans on breeding their current dog so, I kind of volunteer to take one if there’s an unwanted one.