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Feeling Lonely and Alone

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It is the start of the rainy season and that empty feeling/feeling alone is going back again. I used to love rain in my younger years as my creative side is very active, I’ll be sketching people and places then after that try to do painting or ink my sketches. Nowadays, it felt sad and I not even complaining because it still fits my mood, even though I sound/look very cliche.

I also noticed that going to go back to the office seems like a burden to me for a couple of days. I don’t know what I’m doing, usually, I end up hating myself at the end of my shift and that feeling goes even worse, especially when I return home. Even though I’m already used to seeing an “empty” house every night, it still bites me from time to time. I already consider getting a pet but I’m currently stuck on these options — adopting a cat or waiting for my brother to give me a puppy. There are plans on breeding their current dog so, I kind of volunteer to take one if there’s an unwanted one.

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Life Update — Chapter 3

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Life hits and it is getting harder for me to focus on for some months now, especially my last post and I have no idea why. I assume that it’s my being “under the weather” feeling but I noticed that I’ve been semi-OK doing things lately both doing things at home and at work. As months passed, the more I lose my drive to stuff and it was going down the hill, especially my personal projects that I planned last year — I am in the middle of completing them but I stopped and dropped the project.

Consulted my bestie about this and we both agreed that it might be burnout and add fuel to my stress, I’m also making mistakes at work so I am reconsidering quitting and taking a month or two rest and then going job hunting after that. I don’t have issues with money but it’s nice to earn something while we’re still on a pandemic so I need to build up my life savings before my waifu and I fix our visa papers again.

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